January 10, 2005

Coffee...and No Cigarettes

DDcoffee.jpgI haven't been able to sleep worth a damn for the past week and a half. I try. I eventually fall asleep but I invariably lurk in that dreamy zone between full-fledged snoozing and toss-and-turn frustrated napping. I'm awake every morning by 3:00- slightly less than ideal. Yet I do manage to fall soundly, blissfully asleep about 20 minutes before the alarm goes off. Because of that, I've been irritable, lethargic and one of the single largest supporters of the coffee industry in the Washington, DC metro area. I was really wondering why all this was going down until I realized this weekend that its been a week and a half since I had a cigarette. I'm not losing my mind after all...well, at least no more than usual.

You guys have been really supportive and full of questions. To those who've asked, this is not the first time I've quit. Ready for a shocker? I started smoking when I was 12. Yes. 12. And I continued to smoke until I was 26 when, one morning, I woke up and decided I didn't really want to smoke anymore. So I quit and I managed to stay that way for five years. Then Beth and I decided to head to France. I don't like to fly (really, that's quite an understatement) and everyone knows smoking doesn't count when you're in another country anyway right? Then I quit. Until the emotional upheaval of the summer at which point I found myself purchasing another pack.

I really do have a love/hate relationship with cigarettes. I love smoking them and hate not smoking them. Its different now though. When I was younger (so much younger than today), I didn't really think about the consequences. Now I pretty much know that if I keep it up, I'll die because of it. And I'm thinking that would kinda suck.

Before I forget we caught a couple of movies this weekend.

National Treasure:
It was good as long as you didn't mind the DaVinci Code rip-off or actually think too much. Nicholas Cage wasn't all that good - he's proved great in quirkly roles like those in Adaptation and Matchstick Men but he's just not convincing in anything really straightforward.

Pleasant movie. No, not really. Matter of fact, not at all. But its still excellent. But damn, if I ever have a daughter I'm just locking her in her room until she's 20...no 30.

Pieces of April:
A seriously excellent film. I have no idea why it didn't get a greater amount of press. Perhaps it was too nice.

Posted by Chris at January 10, 2005 9:14 AM

I completely agree with you on the Pieces of April. Oliver Platt is great, as usual and Katie Holmes! Who knew she was so great at acting!

Posted by: SueBec at January 10, 2005 9:20 AM

I'm really proud and happy for you regarding the smoking. I've pulled and kept myself down to a 1/2 pack a day, but I don't know if I'm really ready yet to quit completely.

Posted by: amber at January 10, 2005 9:22 AM

Sorry you haven't been getting much sleep, I'm right there with ya. Except my lack of sleep is due to the fact that I can't shake this sinus infection. Gah! I'm off to the doctor today for stronger drugs.

Keep up the good work with not smoking! You've quit before, you can do it again. It's all a mind game now. Keep yourself occupied and it'll keep you from thinking about it. And just remember, if you think you need a cigarette, we'll all start singing a Violent Femmes song! ;)

Posted by: Kitty at January 10, 2005 9:50 AM

Good luck with the smoking bit- my friend's kicing the habit too for her new year's resolution, and I can imagine how hard it can be. Thank god I never liked smoking and always puked after I tried a cigarette!

Posted by: Kristi at January 10, 2005 9:57 AM

I will admit that I am not doing as well as you are with the Non-Smoking. I had three cigarettes last week. Now this is a drastic improvement from the pack a week I had been smoking, but it is so hard to just stop. I did not smoke all weekend but I can tell you I thought about getting one this morning. Why does something I like so much have to be so unhealthy?

Posted by: goodsnake at January 10, 2005 10:11 AM

Thirteen was VERY disturbing. Made MD want to stop having sex for awhile (well, almost anyway)...just in case we had a girl! HA!

We rented Deckchair Danny on the weekend. Silly little Australian movie that you should see! I give it two thumbs up.

Posted by: wn at January 10, 2005 10:45 AM

I smoke, too, and probably about a pack a week-- depends on whether I go out or not.

I have tried to quit too-- but I really just don't want to.

And my father is the president of the national lung association in Utah (no, I'm not kidding).

You might want to ask your doctor about wellbutrin or the patch or try nicorette, just to get you through the no sleeping. But after 72 hours, you should be over the physical addition (I think). Then, three weeks for the emotional addiction.

Then, your chances are pretty good.

Posted by: jen at January 10, 2005 11:03 AM

So proud of you for not smoking! Maybe your doc would give you some Ambien. When I broke my ankle and was in a nice big cast, I couldn't fall asleep and the Ambien was a wonder drug.

I'm scared to see Thirteen.

Posted by: Kelley at January 10, 2005 11:11 AM

I loved Pieces of April. I thought it was such a great role for ... you know, whatshername... Dawson's Creek girl. Yeah, her ;)

And my daughter was like 6 months old when I first saw Thirteen. I wanted to put her in a convent right then and there. No way I can go through something like that. (Although, I like to believe that I won't be half as clueless as that mother was) ... but still.

Haven't seen National Treasure yet, but your review pretty much summed up exactly what I assumed it would be. Nicholas Cage needs to stick to quirky. Con Air should have been proof enough that he's not meant for the action/adventure/hero type. (And whoever thought it was a good idea to give him a southern draw needs to be killed!)

Posted by: RockStar Mommy at January 10, 2005 11:12 AM

Guys who don't smoke are incredibly sexy.

Posted by: Mrs. Cactus at January 10, 2005 11:12 AM

due to my inability to properly read movie times, i watched a bit of national treasure while waiting for my movie to start. i have to say i wasn't one bit sorry about not being able to see all of the movie. i'm not a fan of cage so that explains a little bit of the dislike but really i think it's just a bad movie.

Pieces of April was very good. I just happened to stumble upon it in Blockbuster. I don't even think I remember it being out in theaters.

Posted by: Patricia at January 10, 2005 11:12 AM

I am very proud of you, and inspired by your quitting. I, however, do not have that kind of resolve right now. It would kill me. No, better yet, I would end up killing someone else......
^5's to you!

Posted by: Jade at January 10, 2005 11:27 AM

I quit smoking successfully after 10 years. It helped that my friends who smoked and I already had some rules in place: no smoking in the house, anyones house. We were tossed to the freezing cold (by choice!). No smoking before noon or after dinner on a weeknight. We also had 20 cigs a day for 1 month, then 18 a day until we got to 4-6 a day and finally said, what was the point, prices were too expensive anyway. My last straw was that I was about to move in with my boyfriend (now husband) and his daughter and we both quit for the kids sake.

Gum chewing/tic tacs helped. I cut my caffiene to 1 cup a day in the morning. A hot shower before bed and a relaxation tape for those times when I cant sleep. A sleep aid once in a while helped too.

Now, I cant stand the smell of cigarettes. I start to get ready for bed at 8pm so by the time 11 rolls around, I am ready for it.

Good luck to you!

Posted by: bd at January 10, 2005 12:04 PM

quitting smoking is a huge feat, so i hear. my mom quit for new year's also. and, this is also like her third or fourth or fifth time quitting. seriously. so, i wish you luck and, hopefully, a full night's rest soon!

as for the movies go? i haven't seen any of them, but thirteen and pieces of april are at the top of my netflix queue right now. no kidding. :) national treasure looks ok, dave wants to see it. so, eh.

anyway, have a good day! i get to relax for a few more hours, and then go to class tonight. blech.

Posted by: tiffanie at January 10, 2005 12:16 PM

Count me in on the Pieces of April suprise bandwagon. I was expecting nothing from that movie and ended up finding it rather good. Who knew Katie had it in her.

Thirteen scared the bejesus out of me. However, I think the scariest part was when she said her thong was great for pooping on the go. I just...gross. Thongs are good for so many other reasons.

Consider myself lucky that I never caught the smoking bug. My mom always told me addiction was in my genes and to steer clear of the cigarettes and alcohol. Too bad her warning didn't include Japanese prostitutes.

Posted by: smartjuice at January 10, 2005 12:21 PM

all of my friends and even my fiance are all quitting - and YAY! am proud!

Posted by: type a at January 10, 2005 1:05 PM

I feel ya. It's been about 2 1/2 weeks since I last smoked. And it's still killing me.

Posted by: Martha at January 10, 2005 1:30 PM

I have also been smoke free since the new year. Not even one even after sharing a half bottle of Makers Mark with my BIL last Saturday night. I have been chewing the Nicorette. I feel it does help the craving...no problems sleeping though...see below..

I'm not sure what it was, the Makers Mark or the Nicorette, but Saturday night I had a dream I went to a Halloween party..with Lynn Cheney as my date!!!! Actually, I am a little afraid to go back to sleep. Maybe I need some of your coffee!

Posted by: Dave at January 10, 2005 1:54 PM

You can do it! Go you, non smoking (and NOT smelly) mr Cactus! :))

*sending you lots of sleepy dust*

Posted by: Sweety at January 10, 2005 1:55 PM

Good for you for quitting. I started at around 12 too, I was a cigarette broker back then, hehe. Good luck! I'm trying to quit too.

Posted by: Carla at January 10, 2005 2:00 PM

Good job! Keep it up! Iknow it will be tough - but you did it before... cheers!

Posted by: Sue at January 10, 2005 2:47 PM

~I wish you nothing but success in finally giving up the habit...the mental part is the toughest, climb that hill and you are in good shape...now if I could only do the same...~

Posted by: btezra at January 10, 2005 2:54 PM

Yeah you! Keep it up!

Posted by: Amber at January 10, 2005 3:20 PM

Remember that movie where that guy contracted with the mob to help him quit smoking and they put his wife in the chamber with the electrified floor when he cheated? We could do that for ya's. All ya's gots ta do is say da woid. I'm tinkin' you'll be quittin' real soon.

Posted by: Jon in Michigan at January 10, 2005 3:33 PM

Good luck with quitting smoking! I quit years ago, but I still get the occasional urge. Actually, just the other day I was watching a couple of smokers and thinking bitterly "how come they get to smoke and I don't?" But most of the time I don't even think about it.

Now, if I could just figure out why I can't sleep...

Posted by: bad penguin at January 10, 2005 3:48 PM

my husband keeps nagging me to quit - I've been at it since age 15. I just can't do it! Yet. Congrats to you! If you've gone this long, you're golden. ;-)

Posted by: Dawn (webmiztris) at January 10, 2005 4:54 PM

I smoked for 5 years and packed it in about 14 months ago. I was ill with flu and a chest infection, so I didn't notice it so much as I would have done otherwise. I also used a Quitmeter program that I found online. Good luck with the giving up.

Posted by: Annie at January 10, 2005 5:36 PM

I've been wavering about seeing Pieces of April. Now I'm thinking I'll give it a chance. Good luck on the no smoking!

Posted by: Fraulein N at January 10, 2005 6:15 PM

Coffee is good, so are Krispy creams. Oh which reminds me. Send me some krispy creams and I'll send you a bottle or REAL canadian maple syrop fresh out of the tree.
So I swa the best movie last night, it was called orgasmo. No name actors in it 'cept for ron jeremy It'll become evidnet in a minute why he was in it. SO its about this mormon guy from Idaho who is in L.A, while hes there he gets a job as a porn star super hero called orgasmo hahahahaha. Very funny flick. I'm actually very truned off by the box office lately nothing but Crap with a capital K in the theatres now

Posted by: shaners at January 10, 2005 7:38 PM

Boo! There's nothing worse than an extended lack of sleep. I hope you get more zzzzz's soon. :)

Posted by: Zandria at January 10, 2005 8:00 PM

Good for you and good lucking with the quitting smoking thing!! =) Sorry about the dreaded insomnia, I've been having the same problem for weeks and there's a bottle of Tylenol Simply Sleep calling my name now. It's either that or I down some Nyquil even though I'm not sick...which is probably not a good idea.

Also? I LOVED Pieces of April, it was so good! Loved. It.

Posted by: Monique at January 10, 2005 8:17 PM

As an avocate for the child-free lifestyle, I am the last to give parental advice, but here goes...Parents of young daughters need to see the movie Thirteen. Trust me. Not only do I share a forename with the main character, but from (too many!)similar experiences I can tell you that the movie paints a very realistic picture of the innerworkings of the hormaonally-deranged mind of teenage girls.
And , uh, oh yeah...Hi Chris!

Posted by: Geezitron at January 10, 2005 10:54 PM

Keep up the non-smoking. I'm still trying to be a smoker, but find that I just can't do it. I think I'm just gonna chew the nicorette gum - get myself a nicer nasty habit.

Ya know, if you've been over at my site rubbing around and stuff you totally could have caught the sleeplessness from me. I've been sleeping like a freakin baby this week. So I guess it's like "tag, you're it" with the insomnia stuff. Sorry!

...and I totally agree with you on Thirteen and Pieces of April. Loved them! Haven't seen the other movie, though.

Posted by: Gweny at January 11, 2005 1:16 AM

I hope that you do manage to successfully quit. It does suck to die from emphysema and dead lungs. It sucks even worse to be the kid in the family that gets to tell her dad the day before he dies, "Don't be afraid, dad. You can breathe on the other side."

Posted by: etherian at January 11, 2005 3:55 AM

yeesh...hang in there bub.

Posted by: sphinx at January 11, 2005 8:48 AM

My husband is trying to stop smoking (again) and is quite sleepy and irritable himself. So I'm feeling Mrs. Catus' pain.

I haven't seen Thirteen, and now I'm afraid to do so. I've always threatened my daughter with locking her in her room until she was 30, or sending her to a nunnery. Unfortunately, it hasn't worked.

Posted by: Lisa at January 11, 2005 10:23 AM

here is to a smoke free you- really it is for the best!

Posted by: stinkerbell at January 12, 2005 9:23 AM