August 19, 2004


Its been a hard couple of weeks. I don't need to tell you that. There was that whole string of less-than-happy posts I left in my wake as evidence. But I think its all going to be okay.

Sure, I chain-smoked, rarely ate, lost a little bit of weight and pretty much lost all sense of reason there for a bit...but its all going to be okay.

Its easy to lose your way in this world and pretty damn difficult to get back on track once you do. But, with the help, love and understanding of an incredible woman and best friend, there's pretty much nothing you can't do.

A lot of you took the time to post some very kind comments and drop me some heartfelt, sincere email. I can't express how much that's meant. I truly thank you all. And for those of you who commented anonymously, let me know who you are. I'd like to thank you too. I sound like a broken record but I'll say what I always guys really and truly rock.

Like I said, its been a difficult time...but I think its going to be okay.

Posted by Chris at August 19, 2004 11:04 PM

Glad to hear that things are looking up. I can't wait to read more:)

Posted by: Adi at August 19, 2004 11:18 PM

It's absolutely going to be okay. Welcome back.

Posted by: martha at August 19, 2004 11:46 PM

Awesome! Yayyyyyy! Just got your reply to my comment and thought I'd check you out one more time for the night... glad to see you are keeping your chin up... and yes... no matter how dark the sky gets, how much it rains... (cause we all know when it rains, it pours) the sun will eventually come out and beam it's rays of shine on ya...
Can't wait to read more of your awesome entries!
Take Care!

Posted by: Ana at August 19, 2004 11:48 PM

I'm really glad to hear that you're doing okay now - I was a bit behind on the times as I haven't been able to get online much lately. Sorry I wasn't there to add to the kind emails and comments. I have to say, your self-portrait had me rather worried. But it's very reassuring to hear that you're alright now. Glad to have you back!

Posted by: Heather at August 20, 2004 12:32 AM

Yeah. This is good news.

Posted by: zenwanderer at August 20, 2004 01:14 AM

Mr. Cactus good to see you have emerged! Remember:
Life is rather like a tin of sardines - we're all of us looking for the key. -Alan Bennett

Posted by: Gypsy at August 20, 2004 01:19 AM

When I went through the darkest time of my life recently, I found the best support system in the people who read my blog, some friends, some strangers and I will never forget it. Isn't it awesome?

Best of luck to you, Chris.

Posted by: yvonne at August 20, 2004 01:28 AM

that is:

really really great.

Glad you're back.

Posted by: Maureen at August 20, 2004 01:38 AM

Hey Mr. Cactus. Glad you're back. Also your kindly comments regarding Mrs. cactus made me smile. I think you two are quite cute, in the non-gagging sense of the word.

Posted by: Heather at August 20, 2004 01:44 AM

Yeah a post from Chris!
Hope things are ok babes!!

Posted by: Cheeky Girl at August 20, 2004 02:50 AM

I'm so glad to see you back and happy that things are working out.:) The love of an incredible woman can do wonders. I'm glad you have yours. :)

Posted by: groovebunny at August 20, 2004 03:46 AM

And... have you stopped smoking again yet? Glad to hear things are looking somewhat brighter.

Posted by: Amber at August 20, 2004 07:46 AM

glad to hear things are on an upswing... still, take your time, we'll all be here for you.

Posted by: monique at August 20, 2004 07:49 AM

I came on here today expecting to see a bunch of stuff that I'd missed while I was away this week. I'm sorry to hear that it's been so rough for you, but it sounds like it's on the way to getting better. :)

Posted by: Zandria at August 20, 2004 08:03 AM

Welcome back! Glad things are looking up. I, and I'm sure many others, are only an email away if you need an ear. Also glad to hear your lady has been your rock.

Posted by: Krush at August 20, 2004 08:13 AM

Welcome Back, Chris. We've missed ya'!

Posted by: Zoot at August 20, 2004 08:35 AM

Welcome back, missed ya..glad you are back!

Posted by: debby at August 20, 2004 08:38 AM

Glad you're back. And yes, it will be okay. No matter what you are going through, it is important to keep in mind that it always gets better in the end.

Posted by: hilldery at August 20, 2004 09:39 AM

light at the end of the tunnel . . . such a welcome sight, huh?

Posted by: type a at August 20, 2004 09:46 AM

Oh I get it, Beth's your wife! It took a while to figure out that it was no coincidence that your cats had the same name and you both lived outside DC. I got this now.

Glad you're back, Chris. Sounds like it was rough, but I'm glad things are looking up. BTW, I love this site. I want to be this cool. I may steal all your stories and pretend they happened to me.

Posted by: Jon in Michigan at August 20, 2004 10:13 AM

hee hee, Jon in Michigan is pulling a David Sedaris, stealing your stories and pretending they happened to him.
glad you're back from the dark side of the moon. What WOULD we do without the wonderful people we love to get us through rough times?

Posted by: samantha at August 20, 2004 10:25 AM

Welcome back man.

Posted by: Strode at August 20, 2004 11:17 AM

Welcome back Chris! :)) I'm happy things are looking up!

And you'd better stop smoking, or I'm gonna come over there and give you some whoop ass! ;)

Posted by: Sweety at August 20, 2004 11:31 AM

You might be little frayed around the ends - but all will work out....Glad you're back.

Posted by: Sue at August 20, 2004 11:43 AM

glad to hear things are getting better!

Posted by: beck at August 20, 2004 01:44 PM


It will get better. Sucky things suck, and painful things hurt, and there are some things we just cannot blog about, and that sucks, too, because it's where we normally share & vent.

I don't say this because you don't already know it, I'm saying this to remind you that we are all here for you. Every one of us has felt pain, and some, I imagine, shitloads of pain. So we know at least *that* little bit; we have that in common.

It will get better. I, like all of your blog friends, am thinking about you. It will get better. Your blog friends care. I hope you can feel some comfort through all our words, and thank God you have such a lovely best friend. Take care, Chris.

Posted by: Shiz at August 20, 2004 02:29 PM

Take your time, Chris. We're all behind everything being okay and can wait for you to get back to us when it does.

Posted by: bmh at August 20, 2004 04:25 PM

Yay! Glad things are going better for you. :-)

Posted by: Fraulein N at August 20, 2004 04:30 PM

Glad to see you back, Chris.

Posted by: Jay at August 20, 2004 10:02 PM

welcome back man.

Posted by: whistler at August 20, 2004 10:52 PM

Glad you're doing better. I've been checking in on ya, but didn't want to disturb ya. You are so right about having a great partner makes all the horrible times bearable.

Posted by: Debra at August 21, 2004 07:10 AM

welcome back. we missed you :)

Posted by: tiffanie at August 21, 2004 07:47 AM

All's well that ends well. Kudos for working through your problem rather than burying it.

And Have A Great Weekend!

Posted by: cassie-b at August 21, 2004 11:01 AM

I'm happy to hear it. :)

Posted by: Iki at August 22, 2004 11:40 PM

Also, I'm digging your current slow posting rate because it makes me look like I'm paying attention. Except for now, since I'm like 3 days late. Sorry. *lol*

Posted by: Iki at August 22, 2004 11:40 PM